In awe of you

I’m in awe of you

Time has no meaning

Because as soon as I met you

My soul urged to make you mine

My eyes looked into yours

And I felt like I already knew you

Conversation was effortless

I felt as though I could tell you things I would never tell anyone else

Because you know exactly who I am

I love what your name does to me

When a text pops up with your name on my phone

When I say your name in my head and get butterfly’s

People can have the same name but yours still signals louder

You listen to my mind, heart, body and soul.

I too listen to yours and it is beyond beautiful.

Of all the things I have to do everyday

I make sure to make you a priority

Not because I have to, but because I want to. because I like to.

Your gentle kiss

Your forgiving heart

Your open arms on my dark days

My heart feel alive

I don’t know where it happened.

I don’t know when it happened.

And I’m scared as hell of what is to happen.

But with you I’m vulnerable

You have the power to change my mood with in seconds

This feeling is exhilarating but at the same time terrifying.

I appreciate you so much

And need to stop taking what we have for granted

You listen to every essence of who I am

This feels so pure

I’m infatuated with you

I brought you into my world

And am thankful you brought me to yours too.

I feel the happiness of them colliding,

When you’re sleeping ill wake you up just to hear the sound of your voice.

That’s how I know I’m so selfish when it comes to you

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Feels

my analytical thinker pizza lover.

-Looking at you is so pleasing, that you got me feel like I’m dreaming.

• I know we just met but was it just me or did we easily connect

-Waking up to you that day felt like a puzzle piece but our bodies still went together perfectly

• All around you’re the best guy I’ve ever met

• If I was a minimalist you’d be that one shirt I’d buy

-Quality over convenience

-That’s true happiness right

—Sleepovers in the night staying up past midnight:

-Boy you got my cheeks blushing.

-It’s Bc you’re my sunlight.

-Baby I’m dynamite so together where explosive.

• You got nice tan skin

• That I wanna always be kissin.

-You’re cute in your stripe t’s

-Now please provide me with that vitamin d.

-Bc babe I asked nicely.

-You’re so hot that if I compared you to temperature you’d be over 110 degrees.

-You always continue to impress me.

-You work hard, are always at the bars, and live the perfect happy medium.

• You got a smile that’s contagious.

-So never stop smiling and please never change it.

-And when laying across your -chest

-God damn I wanna kiss you.

-And I know you feel it too.

-We have the most pleasurable kiss.

-For that short moment I’m at complete bliss.

-Your laidback and likable

-With a relaxing understanding personality

-You have the ability to always make me laugh.

-Especially when We exchange in ridiculous conversation.

– So much going on but hanging out with you is feeling like a vacation,

-I’m pretty sure it’s my new favorite location.

• the whole physic of you

• is the greatest view.

• You got shy boy charm, and nice arms covered in tattoos.

• With soft brown eyes

• That give me a sense of curiosity

• I wanna hear what those eyes have seen.

-And you know what I mean

-Your personal family history.

• .

• I could do absoluly nothing with you and be perfectly content

-it’s captivating

When you wear sweat pants.

My desire for you is Enhanced

I glance at you even when you’re not looking

And I feel my heart dancing.

• Meeting you is like a game of roulette

• And honestly I just got lucky

I’m so flawed but some how you kind of accept me.

You’re to good for me.

You’re so attracted that even when I’m not with you I’m thinking about you and get distracted.

Basically.. I like you the way I like lazy Sundays.

The way I like holidays. And the way I like to drink everyday.

And I hate cats but for you I’ll tolerate.

From your intuitive thinker

every emotion possible

It looks like you found the love that I was hoping to find

The only you I love is the one that I create in my mind,

I often wonder if you ever did care

I wonder why in my mind is the only time you ever were there

See, we were friends, but that felt more like pretend

This year is awfully clear, the real us is what I fear

The one where we were only friends and I acted like we dated

And every poem I wrote for you, you know you actually hate it

Because you realize that you never felt the same when you read it

We’re in a world full of people, yet I’m feeling so lonely

If only I could tell myself there’s plenty fish in the sea

But see, the sea if full of sharks, fake guppies, and greed

And as I find myself drowning while I’m fighting to breathe

I realize that I’m in love with what I thought we could be

I’m nothing more than nothing, you’re bluffing saying you care

Our only real connection is memories that we share

And I can’t lie, it hurt a little when you said you didn’t want me

Every pic I see is you and her, her Twitter trying to taunt me

This is old and exhausting.

Some offspring, family in a house is what I thought about

all we got is memories

And wishing we were meant to be

Hoping that eventually, you would see the end with me

But now I’m stuck inside my head and reading every text you ever sent to me

I know you never found me crossing your mind

But I’d be lying if you didn’t cross mine

All the time, I see some of your pictures online

Drunk words are sober thoughts so I’m still happy that you said it

Hearing that you missed me almost made me feel pathetic

But that’s everything that’s echoing inside my fucking head it

People will always express that they never meant to, after they hurt you,

but their actions will always prove that they had the intent to.

you know in order for you to grow you have to stop watering dead situations

even though deep in your heart you may feel sad inside

but that pain is only temporary there’s no need to agonize

I really don’t think love and relationships are in my destiny

Because everybodu that I’ve been with

Has made a complete mess of me

So I really don’t think I have much left in me

I understand that nobody wants to be alone

And it’s human nature to be passionate

And when somebody hurts you

Why do you accept them back again

You see you never really learned to love yourself and thats why you feel worthless within

And for the exact same reason your willing to let that person hurt you again

You have absolutely no reason to block me on everything and act how you just did. You HURT me. You LIED to me. I didn’t do anything. I believed your words that night. And now right now all I feel like doing is crying. All I wanted from you was an apology. That’s all. I looked at my phone non stop today. Bc of you. Now I have anger in my heart. The anger I used to have. . I’ve never felt so hurt in my life.

It looks like you found the love that I was hoping to find

The only you I love’s the one that I create in my mind,

I often wonder if you ever did care

I wonder why in my mind is the only time you ever were there

See, we were friends, but that felt more like pretend

This year is awfully clear, the real us is what I fear

The one where we were only friends and I acted like we dated

And every poem I wrote for you, you know you actually hate it

Because you realize that you never felt the same when you read it

We’re in a world full of people, yet I’m feeling so lonely

If only I could tell myself there’s plenty fish in the sea

But see, the sea if full of sharks, fake guppies, and greed

And as I find myself drowning while I’m fighting to breathe

I realize that I’m in love with what I thought we could be

I’m nothing more than nothing, you’re bluffing saying you care

Our only real connection is memories that we share

And I can’t lie, it hurt a little when you said you didn’t want me

Every pic I see is you and her, her Twitter trying to taunt me

This is old and exhausting.

Some offspring, family in a house is what I thought about

all we got is memories

And wishing we were meant to be

Hoping that eventually, you would see the end with me

But now I’m stuck inside my head and reading every text you ever sent to me

I know you never found me crossing your mind

But I’d be lying if you didn’t cross mine

All the time, I see some of your pictures online

Drunk words are sober thoughts so I’m still happy that you said it

Hearing that you missed me almost made me feel pathetic

But that’s everything that’s echoing inside my fucking head it

People will always express that they never meant to, after they hurt you,

but their actions will always prove that they had the intent to.

you know in order for you to grow you have to stop watering dead situations

even though deep in your heart you may feel sad inside

but that pain is only temporary there’s no need to agonize

I really don’t think love and relationships are in my destiny

Because everybodu that I’ve been with

Has made a complete mess of me

So I really don’t think I have much left in me

I understand that nobody wants to be alone

And it’s human nature to be passionate

And when somebody hurts you

Why do you accept them back again

You see you never really learned to love yourself and thats why you feel worthless within

And for the exact same reason your willing to let that person hurt you again

Almost hit delete but I hit play and heard the message

You were drunk as hell it coulda got to you, you let it

Drunk words are sober thoughts so I’m still happy that you said it

Hearing that you missed me almost made me feel pathetic

But that’s everything that’s echoing inside my fucking head it

Know it’s been a long time, I hear you’re doing just fine

I know you never found me crossing your mind

But I’d be lying if you didn’t cross mine

From time to time, I see some of your pictures online

“Kindest Regards” was hard, I left my heart on the line

But I’m nothing more than nothing, you’re bluffing saying you care

Our only real connection is memories that we share

And I can’t lie, it hurt a little when you said you didn’t want me

Every pic I see is you and her, her Twitter trying to taunt me

You think I let it go? This is old and exhausting

Some offspring, family in a house is what I thought about

It looks like you found the love that I was hoping to find

The only you I love’s the one that I create in my mind,

I often wonder if you ever did care

I wonder why in my mind is the only time you ever were there

See, we were friends, but that felt more like pretend

This year is awfully clear, the real us is what I fear

The one where we were only friends and I acted like we dated

And every poem I wrote for you, you know you actually hate it

Because you realize that you never felt the same when you read it

We’re in a world full of people, yet I’m feeling so lonely

If only I could tell myself there’s plenty fish in the sea

But see, the sea if full of sharks, fake guppies, and greed

And as I find myself drowning while I’m fighting to breathe

I realize that I’m in love with what I thought we could be

People will always express that they never meant to, after they hurt you,

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but their actions will always prove that they had the intent to.

you know in order for you to grow you have to stop watering dead situations

even though deep in your heart you may feel sad inside

but that pain is only temporary there’s no need to agonize

I really don’t think love and relationships are in my destiny

Because everybodu that I’ve been with

Has made a complete mess of me

So I really don’t think I have much left in me

I understand that nobody wants to be alone

And it’s human nature to be passionate

And when somebody hurts you

Why do you accept them back again

You see you never really learned to love yourself and thats why you feel worthless within

And for the exact same reason your willing to let that person hurt you again

I always end up writing about you

you were second guessing everything inside your mind.

My excuse is that we gave it everything and that we tried.

But sometimes, trying isn’t gonna make it work.

And sometimes, people leave relationships hurt.

But this one time, I had thought that we wouldn’t for sure

We got one life, and I thought I would spend it all with him

Feelings

know you hate feelings and they push you away but I want you to know.

I kid you not that I enjoy myself with you even when we are doing absolutely nothing.

We don’t have to kiss or anything and you make me have butterfly’s.

When I walk in a crowded room of people and see you, you’re literally all I see. And when we talk nothing else matters. All my problems and worries go away and it’s just me and you.

I’ve never been more comfortable with anyone in my life but you.

I’ve never been so attracted to anyone. I can’t even get wet with anyone but you

I’ve never felt the way I have with anyone but you.

I can think I like someone but then I talk to you just for a day and it feels like magic and I realize I don’t actually like the person I’m talking to.

I’m human

-I’m human, I’m sorry-

Hey handsome man.

I know we recently just met but man did we connect.

I know I fucked up but I also know it was for the best.

I don’t know what I’m trying to express but you are better than any guy I’ve ever met.

I look up to you, for all you taught me in a short amount of time.

You taught me the difference between a man and a boy.

I mean, I’ve never met a guy who treats woman with so much respect.

You taught me that and so much more and for that I adore you.

You some how have time to keep up with your great body, not to mention your nice to everybody, you work full time, go to school, and you’re even a great dad to your daughter whom you’re raising alone.

It’s safe to say you’re the most motivated, driven guy I’ve ever met.

I aspire to have your ambition and your mindset.

Meeting you was like a game of roulette.

I got lucky.

And even though it’s over, meeting you was a blessing.

The time spent with you was nothing but the best.

And I fucked it all up for a stupid boy.

My spirit is low, and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t sad.

I fucked up everything I could have had.

You were the guy, I thought I’d never find

You’re set in your ways. I’m set in mine.

And that’s just fine.

It just sucks that you’re never gonna be mine.

once I start to fall I hold on to my pride, And I push away because it’s all I know how to do.

But, I still have a hold on you. .

And need to get it through my mind that we are through.

But how did you expect me to change.

When you needed to change too.

Ugh, I feel so blue. I fucking liked you.

I can’t go back and change my actions.

But I’ll forever have the memory of meeting you.

Like the first time I met you…

Never have I grown so close to someone so fast.

I analyzed you and you entered my eyes.

From then on I was mesmerized.

We exchanged in good conversation.

Your eyes looked into mine .

As they listened when I spoke.

It showed you were into me..

When you talked your voice was like a soft melody.

My ear only wanted to hear more.

You gave me a sense of curiosity.

I liked you because you called me out on all my bullshit.

I wish the story of us coulda been worthwhile.

I’m so flawed but you some what accepted me.

Because of all this my every thought was consumed with you.

It’s hard to think of anything because It’s always you in my brain.

All I do is think of you.

When I’m not with you than I worry for you.

I mean my days are perfect every time they involve you.

Just doing nothing with you gives me pure happiness.

Even when we are fighting, I’d rather fight with you than be hanging with someone else

I admire that Your, personable, athletic and got a great smile.

With amazing style, which I love teasing you about.

You’re what my soul desires.

You are like an untamable fire.

You warm me and consume me.

Something I have no control over.

And now some how this has all burnt to the ground.

I know I don’t have a choice for there ever being an us.

But I want to say I’m sorry/

I’m sorry. Sorry for cussing and never discussing.

Sorry for slamming doors, and acting out like whore.

I’m sorry I’m crazy, and I appreciate you for making me feel sane.

I’m gonna want to text you every day 24/7 after this.

And it’s gonna take every urge for me not too.

I know very well that you don’t ever give a second chance.

I’ve finally awakened from this dream to realize reality.

That you’re never going to be with me.

With that said…

I shall leave my heart vacant.

I’s gonna miss what is no more.

And my regret is that I didn’t make you my only.

Love

I was over coming and internal battle with my self.

You made your choice.

And It took time to let go

We were as beautiful as a rose and it was the thorns that killed us

 

I used to count the days of how long I’d go without texting you.

But now I don’t even realize it

We can’t be physical/sexual  to protect my sanity

I love you as a friend.

I miss you as one too.

I like country music now Bc of you

I used to find ways to stock your stock your social media all the time:

I’m proven guilty if I tell you I never do it now.

But it’s far less then it used to be.

I am stronger

I am Happier

I am independent.

And you look happier.

You do.

And one day I’ll have that too.

For the first time over I’m happy alone.

Yes I’d rather be alone with you.

So much reminds me of you

With you I was someone I should of never been.

It’s not like me to be so mean.

Nice to everyone.

But projecting all my anger to you:

I do miss you kissing me so I can’t speak.

But without one another we are better then we’ve ever been

My heart is no longer broken.

I’ve picked up all the pieces

And only keep the good memories of me and you.

What we had was a learning experience.

Passion can ruin you.

But you’ll forever have a spot in my heart💕

Here’s to us moving on, and being understanding and happy for one another.

This isn’t a good bye Bc I’ve ended way to many of my writings to you with that. But this is the start to becoming aquantices.

No longer friends, no longer hate, no longer physical or emotional ties, and no more text.

Just a smirk in the hallways or down town.

To Remember What we once were

And remembering what we learned.

A smirk is our way of hello. And our way of us moving on. 💕

During our relationship

You were outside and I was inside.

And we were separated by a glass sliding door.

We were at the same place but with different mindsets.

I was locked inside.

And now I’m finally free.

You’re a private person who lives a private life and not bare it all to the world.

You’ve taught me that people cope with things differently

It’s okay to sleep all day.

Together we were open to new experience.

We knew this for a long time lol

It was The loss we learned

When we first kissed I felt like a new freedom or something.

I found a moment to be brave.

I loved ya

It means nothing to either of hann ke.

Love is all about the wind/

It felt right but we were bound to burn

You tell me things and I ant to listen

I wanna run to you

I wanna go to twin arrows casino Witt you and gamble

I wanna go outside and set a hammock on the trees and be outside with nature and you. In a private area

We finally want the same thing.

Not each other

You are an art piece

Analyzing every crease on your face when you laugh.

You were Appreciated by me and now by  someone else

I turn you into poetry

Sweet boy

 

Sweet boy

We recently just met but boy did we connect.

I’ve never met a guy who treats woman with so much respect.

I like my alcohol and you like your cigarettes.

I wish we could go back to the beach watching the sunset.

In that moment it felt perfect.

I’m full of regret and more than upset with myself.

 

 

I appreciate your relaxing/understanding personality.

You have the ability to always make me laugh.

You got those brown kind eyes, with a look so shy.

Your tall, handsome and got a great smile..

I guess it’s cool that you can snowboard.

I know it sucks for you because I’m faster 😉

But it’s okay you’re the better dancer.

 

Your eyes stare straight into mine.

As they listen when I speak.

It shows you’re into me.

I’m so flawed and somehow you accepted me.

You are too good for me.

 

When you open up to me.

My ears only want to hear more.

And it gives me a sense of joy that you’re slowly starting to trust me.

Every time we have a sleep over.

I’m always cozier.

Laying across your chest.

I always feel blessed.

You’re laid back and likable.

I’m impatient and vulnerable.

You’re charming and considerate.

I’m just a fucking idiot.

I’m anxious and awkward and everything bad.

You’re everything I’m not, which is why I admire you so much more.

I’m so attractive to your personality and you.

 

It’s only been a few weeks and I managed to completely lose you.